The Green Car of Fear – Jennifer’s perspective ~

Jennifer was in the car with me on Wednesday when we nearly died in a head-on collision. Here is her view of what happened:

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I was dosing and I heard Bill say “Bloody hell”, and I snapped open my eyes and I saw a car on our side of the road, a green car, heading straight for us going extremely fast. 

Bill quickly swerved around it, I don’t know how he did that because the road was very narrow, it was a small country road and he had very little room for manoeuvring, because it had guideposts all the way along the side. 

The whole thing was all over in seconds, I didn’t have a time to even go into any form of panic. Then I worried about Bill because I thought: Oh my God, he must be in panic, but he seemed extremely calm.

My first thought once it was over was: Oh, we just had a head on collision and we’re dead and now we’re in heaven. Everything’s calm and beautiful, the sun is shining, everything’s beautiful around us, everything’s peaceful, everything’s perfect. 

I said to Bill: Did we just die and go to heaven? And he said: Maybe. Then I said: That car was green, did you notice that? That car was the same color as our film?

Bill said that he did notice that.

It wasn’t a new car, it looked like a car that somebody had probably hotted up. It seemed to be quite low to the ground, and it was a green you don’t often see. It was a strange limey green color that I’ve only ever seen in the poster and artwork for Facing Fear.

When I first saw it it was coming at us extremely fast. I don’t know what the distances were but it was almost on top of us, it seemed, and it didn’t slow down in any way. It did not go: Oh oh, I should duck back in or anything, it just kept on coming, totally coming for us.

I don’t know how Bill maneuvered onto the side of the road, he just did, he just maneuvered. He just swerved around it and we continued on, I don’t know how he did that, it was so quick, it was quicker than a blink. And the thing I found amazing, there wasn’t the normal reaction when you’re in an incident on the road where you’re afraid it’s going to be bad. There was none of that, it was just absolute calm from him, total calm. 

The first thing I did once we’d stopped talking, once there was a gap in our conversation, was I tuned in and I asked Spirit, my Higher Self, whatever you want to call it, what was that? I was told it was a recalibration of both of us, especially Bill – that the car did represent fear and that it was a step up to a new paradigm of thinking for both of us, basically, however you want to look at that, it was definitely a step up and away from fear.

I thought: Okay, let’s say that car represented fear, and we stepped to the side of it and around it and it didn’t bother us. Therefore, if ever I’m in a fearful moment in the future, I can reflect back on what happened and ask – how do I, like Bill did then when he swerved around the green car, how do I step around fear and not involve myself in it?

The lesson for me is to remember the moment and to say, I don’t need to have a head on collision because of fear, I can step around it. 

In other words, don’t collide with fear, don’t headbutt it, don’t allow it to wash through you, just move aside from it. That’s hard, I’m not saying that’s easy, not saying that I’m going to be able to do that, but I’m saying that I have a template for doing it now, I have an experience that I will take forward as an example.

I remember that glorious moment after Bill swerved onto the shoulder of the road then he swerved back onto the road again and I thought to myself: Have we just died and we’re in heaven? Everything just looks so beautiful. The sun’s shining, the grass in the paddocks is green. I now realise that on the other side of fear, everything is bright and beautiful…